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Johnny- My Friend with Benefits
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Awesome piece  . Isn't it amazing how we get sucked into other people's reality and we justify our actions as an act of our free will. I have learned that it is not the lie that we tell others that get us into trouble, but the lie we tell ourselves.Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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I want to say something besides that was great writing, but I'm about speechless. Looking back, wondering if we would have done something different.  It's nice to know that we probably would have made the same "mistakes" anyway. Because they weren't really mistakes. It was just what felt right at the time.I know that I couldn't have resisted Johnny. "Helping a friend". Unless permission is explicitly granted beforehand, it never end well when someone clears their conscious. (Any somehow, someone always does.) Those are the lessons we learn. 
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I want to say something besides that was great writing, but I'm about speechless. Looking back, wondering if we would have done something different. It's nice to know that we probably would have made the same "mistakes" anyway. Because they weren't really mistakes. It was just what felt right at the time.I know that I couldn't have resisted Johnny. "Helping a friend". Unless permission is explicitly granted beforehand, it never end well when someone clears their conscious. (Any somehow, someone always does.) Those are the lessons we learn. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Thank you Lala. I think what you say is true, about acceptance. You could play this over a million times in your head- I have- and it still comes out the same. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Thanks Vixen. No movie deal yet. You have acting experience- you want to play Johnny? Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Thank you, dear. It wasn't something I shared easily, for just those reasons. It all happened thirty years ago and it was still hard to confront. I have no idea who would want to publish it though. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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You look quite a lot like she did- short, slender, long brown hair and exceptionally pretty. A decent cameraman can make this work. No body double- there'd go all the fun. Can you do an American accent? Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Well, thank you too, sweetheart! We celebrate Valentine's Day as our anniversary. We met on the old YP on Valentine's Day 2005. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Thank you Annette. Ah, the memories! I landed in a very good place, though. All of that is what got me here. Thanks for being part of my story. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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No, man, you didn’t have anything to say on this month’s topic. Wow. Poignant, personal, illustrative, and beautifully written. I know this was a difficult topic… and the subject you chose even more so. We’re all the richer for your having made the effort. Odd that several people described this as cinematic… it certainly does have a narrative arc, and even a happy, if ambiguous ending for Johnny. (And, of course, regardless of what happened between you and her, you seem to have done all right in the happy ending department, too…) You’ve tangoed here with your experiences with heroin before… while the drug is only a side actor as opposed to a star in this tale, it does play a crucial role. That, too, could not have been easy to revisit. And wow… you’ve pushed yourself to draw some powerful characters in this. Friends with benefits, indeed… you certainly liked her, and it sounds as though she enjoyed you... up until the end with Ray. This was a wrenching piece. I’m really, really glad you wrote it. I hope, now that it’s out and you start to get some distance from actually having written the words, that you get a little more peace/resolution. Stop in, read, and offer comments at my "swinging as seen in the media" blog, "Confessions of a Lifestyle Man" humorlife, which is also the home of the monthly virtual symposium. New post: The Virtual Symposium Returns Lets Pick A Topic
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No, man, you didn’t have anything to say on this month’s topic. Wow. Poignant, personal, illustrative, and beautifully written. I know this was a difficult topic… and the subject you chose even more so. We’re all the richer for your having made the effort. Odd that several people described this as cinematic… it certainly does have a narrative arc, and even a happy, if ambiguous ending for Johnny. (And, of course, regardless of what happened between you and her, you seem to have done all right in the happy ending department, too…) You’ve tangoed here with your experiences with heroin before… while the drug is only a side actor as opposed to a star in this tale, it does play a crucial role. That, too, could not have been easy to revisit. And wow… you’ve pushed yourself to draw some powerful characters in this. Friends with benefits, indeed… you certainly liked her, and it sounds as though she enjoyed you... up until the end with Ray. This was a wrenching piece. I’m really, really glad you wrote it. I hope, now that it’s out and you start to get some distance from actually having written the words, that you get a little more peace/resolution. Well, you know, I didn't think I did have much to say about FWB. I don't especially like the term, but that's neither here nor there. It occurred to me as I thought about it that a friend with benefits was exactly what she was to me, for something like sixteen years. Friends first and we eventually benefited. Quite a few times. I'm glad now that I posted it. It's a side to FWB that people don't often think of. If Fifty Shades of Grey had taken place in a trailer park, would it have had the same appeal to suburban housewives? I think instead someone would have ended up in County. The poor and the chronically alternative in lifestyle have sex and they love each other too. I came to terms with past drug use years ago, and I have no particular grief over it. Many people become dependent on various substances and never even recognize it. What was painful to me about this was my failure to live by my rules. I'm not responsible for Johnny's or Ray's shortcomings. It's one thing to break rules you neither respect nor believe in, but quite another to fail to measure up to your own standards. I think I've resolved that to my satisfaction too, but telling that story was a different matter. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Thanks! I had a dear friend who, when the day was going badly, would look at me and say "Just remember, it's only a movie." The passage of time- lots of time- has changed the way I think about those events, and the way I think about my friends and myself. I'm delighted to still be able to see the sunrise. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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sorry I am so late to respond or read this... Damn you have done some living brother! I really love your stories and have missed reading them  It's really good to see you back.Thanks, Oral. Really, thanks. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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